What will I do without you?

•Saturday, 30 November 2013

today . 1year5months27days in relationship with you . the more the days , the more the the stories . but , i gave you more sad things as memories right ? teruknya kan dapat gf macam ni :') and i hope that you will stay ,walau teruk mana pun dugaan ni ..

kebelakangan ni awak rasa saya mengelak dari awak ke sayang ? saya mintak maaf . tapi jujurnya saya takde niat nak menjauh dengan awak . you aked me tochanged . i gave you full comitment in our relationship . mungkin masih ada yang kurang :') tapi saya sentiasa cuba jadi yang terbaik . mungkin tak seperfect yang awak harapkan . tpi , awak tak bagi saya peluang untuk dapatkan kepercayaan awak . awak selalu persoalkan bila saya jujur . awak nak , tapi awak takboleh terima ? macam nothing je usaha saya ni untuk awak :")

awak tau tak , berat je hati ni kena bagitau yang saya kena pergi plkn . awak rasa saya nak sangat pergi . awak rasa saya takde usaha langsung . awak rasa saya nak sangat jauhkan diri dari awak . awak tau tak , semua yang awak rasa tu salah ? awak tau tak , saya cuma harap yg bila kita dah habis sekolah . saya akan dekat sikit dengan awak :') sebab saya nak awak tengok sendiri , macam mana sayangnya saya dkat awak :') sebab saya nak awak tengok sendiri , saya bukan macam dulu .. maybe sekarang aawak tak nampak . i know that you gonna be sad . me neither . lagi saya yang kena harung semua tu kat sana . mungkin minat saya ,, tapi kalau dah 6bulan . hm . zaman persekolahan saya mungkin penuh dengan bidang macam ni . tapi tu sekolah :') tu bezanya awak . ini bukan sekolah , saya boleh mintak dikecualikan . awak ingat senang :') terlalu banyak procedure nya .. lagipun umi ayah awak pun suruh saya perg , lagi kan dia nak layan saya nak elak benda ni ? how i wish i can avoid all this dumbas things :') saya boleh buat apa sayang . at the first moment , i might be excited . but i grew up . i thinks a lot . about you . about us . but you never believe it . saya pun ada perasaan . hati saya bukan konkrit semata :')

you know what sayang , saya decide nak bagitahu awak , saya harap awak faham situasi saya . saya harap kita boleh enjoy moment2 yang ada sama2 . saya harap yang awak support saya . tunggu saya :') saya faham awak fobia , tapi yang awak fikir saya nak cari 'kawan' baru . awak fikir saya tak fikirkan awak . then you're wrong . totally wrong . can you trust me , that the people i want to be mine is only you :') saya cuma taknak simpan rahsia . saya cuma nak kita sama2 discus untuk hadap benda ni sama2 . thanks god that you didn't have to go . right ? saya usaha yangg , sentiasa usaha . mungkin awak taknampak . but its okay :')

tapi , hati saya retak , punah , hancur , gugur bila awak decide taknak jumpa saya sampai saya habis plkn . and ini yang terbaik untuk kita . are you out of your mind ? how can you decide that thing sayang ? :") im waiting everyday , for our great moment in future . or , something that i can remember when i miss you soon :') something that can make me smile when i can't stand anymore . you're my strength , dont you know ? how broken i am :') kalau saya selalu sakitkan hati awak pun , jangan lah awak hukum saya macam ni :') i've plan everything . i miss you a lot :'( awak nampak dah tak nak hadap muka saya lagi . yes , i know that im not pretty like other girlfriend . i know i am the reasons of your sadness . but am i deserve to get this ? if this way can make you feel better , or make you happy . go ahead . as long as you happy . think again . this is your truly decisions ? if the aswer is yes . then pretend that i never exist in this world . or i was dead . sebab yang ada kat tinggal sekarang ni , just jasad . amirahaqilahbintiezafelrafique has gone . nvm , i can pretend that i am fine .

let me remind you , 14th december will be my birthday . and i wish that i will be able to celebrate it with people that i love with all my hearts . and i will have an amazing day . but , that's only a dreams . and im just wishing it will become true :')
sayang ,
if you thinks this is the only way , and you never want to try to accept it . or you think that i've choose to be like this . you're wrong . hm . thinks twice or more . if this is your decisions , thanks for this birthday presents :') and everything that i want to do with you when we meet soon only a dreams . i just want you to know ,

IDOLOVEYOUSOMUCH :'D
NEVER DARE TO FORGET ME .
IM WAITING
SAYA RINDU AWAK SANGATSANGAT, MUHAMMADHAFIZABINROFA.
PLEASE, MAKE MY DREAMS COME TRUE .
PLEASE, STAY BY MY SIDE ,
PLEASE , THROUGH ALL THIS THINGS TOGETHER WITH ME ,
"SUSAH SENANG KITA HADAP SAMA"
"TAKKAN TERPISAH"
#SENYUM SAMPAI LANGIT
PLEASE , KEEP ALL THE PROMISES :')